Random thoughts ...

If intent and action are not in sync which one to follow?

If you are upset and not trying to hide your feelings and people in front of you don't notice should you mind?

When you are upset and not trying to hide it and your friends can't make out that your mood is not good should you react?
If your friends do make out finally but after quite some time should you be happy that they could make out or should you be upset that it took them so long?

You have a news and according to you it is a bad news; but it is not related to you but related to a friend - why does your mood get affected by it?

When your friend is upset and you try to find out how they are, they get further upset thinking you are doing so because they are upset and feel that you should leave them alone; while you are doing that because you care. What do you do then and how do you react?

Little moments in life

Life often gives little moments. It is up to an individual whether he/she wants to enjoy it or let it pass by. The moments might not seem special and one might ignore it; but here one forgets that no moment is special in itself - its the actions or events that make it special.

For instance consider a few examples:

There's a official party going on. There is large gathering as these kind of parties are few and far between. It is for the duration of 1-2 hours. One has the option of going there or opting not to go and carry on with one's daily chores. Many assume the party to be boring and don't go. Some attend the party but find it dull and find it a wastage of time. There are a few who participate in it and make full use of the time. Which category do you fall? Majority of people fall under the 1st two categories.

One is travelling in a bus or metro. He/She is standing. He/She is just a couple of stops from his/her destination. A seat gets empty as some passenger sitting there gets down. Most of the people would keep standing thinking what's the benefit of sitting for 2 stops. Very few people would actually go and sit for the small duration.

There's a get-together of old friends. Some would not attend it thinking it would be boring. Others attend that. Of those who attend some are just passive who later think it was a wastage of time. The rest do the talking and try to make the most of it.


These were just a few examples; there are many such instances. What I am trying to say here is that people are forgetting to enjoy the moments. They are so caught up in their daily routine that even when they have the chance to enjoy they let it pass by waiting for the big opportunity which rarely comes. The message here is 'Make the most of every opportunity you get and enjoy even when the world is thinking what to do'

Suddenly the world has turned busy

Suddenly the world has turned busy. Or else how have I gone alone? I mean the second weekend running I am at home with none of my friends available. It wasn't like this nor was it meant to be like this. I mean with my mobile full of nos I can't find a no to dial. Oh that doesn't mean their nos are not working; its just that they are all busy. And I can't blame them for being busy as they can't help it. So here I am sitting in front of the computer, on a Saturday afternoon, writing this blog.
Let's look at a few things people are busy with these days -
Marriage is one major factor. Some are married so have to be at home. Some whose marriage are fixed are busy shopping and doing other things including spending a lot of time on phone. Others who are looking for partners, well their weekends are busy meeting prospective partners.
Office is another major reason keeping people busy. Either they have working weeknds - at least one day. Otherwise they are so exhausted with working overtime on weekdays that they can't think of anything but sleep & rest on weekends.
Guests/Relatives have become another major factor. Unplanned visits and occasions are keeping some people busy which they have to attend to and thus are busy.
Other reasons for people being busy is their weekend chores - washing clothes and cleaning for bachelors staying away from home, going home for people whose native place is nearby and household work for people living with family. Weekend courses are another thing that's keeping some people busy (it kept me busy for 2 years when I did my MBA)

These things had always been part but I always found someone :). I guess my luck has run out for once. Its been difficult finding people lately. But I guess what it is doing is allowing me to spend time with me - something which people hardly get time to do. I can indulge in things I have been wanting to do but don't find much time. For instance watching a movie at home with no disturbance, eating my favourite dishes, writing blogs, playing games and planning.
Wow! There are lots of stuff to do and I have been complaining. I guess this sums up how our life goes - "We wait all our life waiting for the right opportunities but often when they come we don't realize that and then we keep waiting". On second thoughts I think I will keep this thought aside and continue wondering what I should do now :)

Watching a movie alone

I am alone at home these days (starting yesterday and for some 10 days). Mom, dad and sister have gone out. Yesterday I decided to go out for lunch. I wanted some company so I started calling my friends to see if anyone could come down. I called some 5-6 friends one after the other but everyone was busy in something or the other and so I was all alone. I decided to go to Shipra Mall and have lunch. I was also thinking about watching a movie. But watching a movie alone was something I had never done before.
I reached Shipra Mall and went to KFC for lunch. After finishing the lunch I thought let me check the show timings. It was 1 PM and there was a show for 'Ishqiya' at 1:45 PM. I had nothing else to do so I bought the ticket. It was 45 mins to go before the movie started, so I started roaming around aimlessly. Since I had no one for company I started observing people. Groups of boys and girls entering and exiting shops, couples moving slowly holding hands, guys trying to get girl's attention, parents playing around with their kids, people waiting for their friends, sign of 'Sale' on almost every shop and many more things.
The entry to the movie area started and I went in. Still 30 mins for the movie to start. I now had a very limited area to roam around. And more and more people started coming in. There were couples lost in themselves, small groups laughing around, some families as well. The only person alone there was me. It was the getting very difficult to pass time. Of course there were a few beautiful girls around but they all had partners :P. Finally the movie theatre opened and people started getting in and taking their seats. I had a decent seat and since I had no one to talk to I hoped the movie is good. The movie was okay - no story as such but brilliant acting and screenplay. Moreover it had Nasiruddin Shah and Vidya Balan - 2 of my favourite actors.

It was my first experience of watching a movie alone. I had never ever imagined me watching a movie alone; but as I had nothing else to do and no company I decided to give it a try. Watching the movie alone is not bad but to pass the time between buying a ticket and the starting of the movie is very difficult, rather boring. Will I do it again? Like I say "Never say never"

A conversation between 2 parts of your mind/heart

Scenario: A friend has returned from a 2 week trip outside India. Its been almost a week and we haven't met yet

Participants:
M1 - one half of my mind/heart
M2 - other half of my mind/heart

Conversation:
M1 - She's back. I should go and meet her
M2 - She is back after 2 weeks. She would be busy
M1 - Then maybe I should call her and find out if she's busy
M2 - If she's anyways busy why bother her
M1 - How about dropping her a mail then. She can reply when she has time
M2 - She wouldn't check your mail right now
M1 - Why?
M2 - You had written to her sometime back giving your blog link. Have you heard from her on that?
M1 - No
M2 - Then?
M1 - She would have read the blog but might not have found time to reply. Or maybe she didn't want to reply on that as it wasn't something people should reply to. After all how many people have you heard from who were on that list.
M2 - Even if I take that why do you want to meet her?
M1 - Its been sometime since we had a good chat. And moreover I am looking forward to my gift
M2 - Are you sure you are going to get one?
M1 - I am hoping so... but not sure
M2 - Then why so much eagerness? You can wait for her to call.
M1 - But why shouldn't I call first?
M2 - Let look at it this way. If you go somewhere and get something for someone what do you do on returning? You call that person up and set up a meeting. You don't wait for the person to contact you. Right?
M1 - Hmm
M2 - And if there's no gift for you then you would be disappointed.
M1 - Actually not. That would set the expectations right for future
M2 - So you won't feel bad
M1 - Not at all. One shouldn't get upset over small things
M2 - Hmm
M1 - So what do you suggest? Shall I call her or wait?
M2 - Do whatever you feel like

Result: This post :)

Kyun dikhaye sapne tu sote jaagte

"O re manwa tu to baawra hai
Tu hi jane tu kya chahta hai baawre
Kyun dikhaye sapne tu sote jaagte"

This song from the movie 'Wake Up Sid' has been playing in my playlist for quite sometime. Today as I was humming this song (yes I do that often and people nearby often ask me to reduce the volume) I started to make sense out of the song, that is, my mind started analyzing the words in the song and comparing it with real life. And I found it quite similar.

To talk of few things why do people want the things they are told not to? Why do people try to do things that are prohibited? Why do people fall in love with people whom their parents won't accept? Why do people hope for things that are improbable?
One answer could be people believe in miracles; think their case is special and different. This can be considered a good thing as well as not a good thing. I mean there would be a time when you will have to draw the line, but that time is not defined. So one may go too far while others may leave too soon. Its a personal choice. I won't say anything more on this for now.

Of course I would love to dream and try to make them true. Whether the dreams are realistic are not only time will tell. Till then - "Kyun dikhaye sapne tu sote jagte"

A strange few days

Its been a pretty strange week so far. And for various reasons; or maybe no reason at all - I mean I know somethings wrong somewhere but don't know what and where. Or maybe nothing is wrong and its just me imagining things. Whatever the case be its certainly not the thing to be in; at least for me.

Lets see what all happened this week:

- On Moday I was in office till 2AM working. Of course I could have avoided it but decided to do it.

- Tueday I spent the most of the time sleeping. In between I watched 3 Idiots.

- Wednesday was pretty hectic trying to finish the work to meet the deadlines.

- Today I didn't feel like working but still had to.

And during this time I was waiting to meet a friend, had an arguement with another friend, was waiting to hear from another friend and now also waiting for a headband. None of this is reason enough for the mood swing which points towards still not having found the cause. Hopefully the thing would go away without actually finding the cause.