1st day away from home

There are certain things you want; you want to do/try things even when you are not sure how they would turn out. You desperately want to know how it feels but somewhere deep down you actually don’t want to do them. It’s like you want to do them and you don’t want to do them. How many times have you been in such a situation where in you have actually done it?

Today happens to be one such day for me. I have come to Bangalore on deputation and today happens to be my first day in here. As I am writing this blog sitting in a hotel room with plenty of time with absolutely nothing to do, I am wondering if I am enjoying it. Well, to be honest I don’t know. On one hand I have this complete freedom with no responsibilities once I am away from office; on the other hand I miss the things Mom used to ask me to do.

A sense of loneliness is beginning to creep in. and thinking of how long the stay might be I feel like running away from this city and go home. Come to think of this – I have never been away from home alone all my life. And now I am all alone in an unknown city. Of course I have friends here and I am sure I will settle in soon; but for now …

The stay here brings with itself a whole new bunch of things – an unknown city, an unfamiliar culture, a new atmosphere and loads of interesting opportunities. It is just like any other trip. Just thinking of the places I might go changes the mood completely. But when you come to think of the fact that you are here for official purpose, the mood changes again. I mean I could certainly have done without taking this project. But then I wanted to take the project for exactly the same reason. It looks gloomy when I think that I am away from my family, away from my home, away from the known. But it looks encouraging when I think of the challenges, the scope of seeing new places and giving me the exposure. Overall it looks like a coin – heads and tails can never be the same yet they are part of the same coin – you can’t separate them.

Things should get better as I spend more days here. Today being the first day I guess this was bound to happen. Lets’ see what the coming days bring in. As of now my first day in Bangalore is coming to an end.